life, updated.

my life has been all sorts of chaotic lately, but in an awesome, bitchin sort of way.

my job is still fantastic. third week in, and it only seems like the first week. that, my friend, is an excellent sign.

and the most exciting part right now is this beautiful weather NYC has thrown at me. and the city too, i suppose. i am so excited to free my feet of pesky shoes, and let them roam free with some flip flops. i even got a pedicure so i could show them off without feeling slightly insecure. and yes, pedi's are totally manly.

emily, AKA my future roommate, celebrated her birthday week (yes...week. i want a birthday week, so remember that please) and we made it to blockheads, this mexican restaurant with excellent drinks and cheap food by new york standards.

OH! and speaking of food, brother jimmy's BBQ, on the UES, was having this all you can eat ribs and beer night yesterday for 22 bucks. coming from texas, and being male, i descended upon the joint with an open stomach ready to be filled. and it was delicious. heavenly. new york knows something about bbq, so i highly recommend it. plus it is making me very excited for the BBQ festival coming up in june.

you know you love me. xoxo.

culture.

living in new york, i am afforded many opportunities to be cultured. and i am beginning to take up the city's offer now that the weather is beginning to not suck and i actually have the funds to do things involving money.

last weekend, my wonderful and future roommate, emily, invited me to see a musical which just opened up on broadway: 'next to normal'. it blew my mind. honestly, you can't really go wrong with any show on broadway because it is a guaranteed good time. plus, i'm gay so anything that involves choreography, music and flashing lights makes me giddy with excitement.

the music is phenomenal. the actors were all believable. and it helped not knowing what i was getting myself into because there are a few twists and turns along the way. which work. ask emily - i gasped when things were revealed. and while i didn't cry - the straight/frat guy in me is able to maintain some composure - i was THISCLOSE to crying.

so, go see the show. you will love it too. and invite me.

last night, i went to see 'valentino: the last emporeror'. this too was amazing. now, if you don't live in new york, or attend major film festivals, i doubt this will come to a theatre near you. but if it does, go see it.

it's not a 'devil wears prada' type of movie. it's a documentary. and it's wonderful. i love clothes, and fashion and it was breathtaking to see how he worked, and how his team of seamstresses worked as well. everything is by hand! i was so shocked. and it made me appreciate clothing, and the art of designing so much more.

plus, he's a cute old man. even if he does look a little crispy for my taste.



so there is a quick wrap-up of my week in culture.

work is grand

there is a stark difference as an intern and as an actual employee. there are the most obvious examples - salary, benefits and having a position that won't expire after 12 weeks simply because that is the length of the internship.

and it recently dawned on me that this job is my first. i have had summer jobs, but THIS job is the first one where i am doing exactly what i have trained to do for four years. this is my first job doing what i love.

so yes, there is a huge contrast between intern and employee. i am asked my opinion. i am trusted. people in the office assume i know what i am doing. and most of all, i am put to work doing actual work that is actually beneficial to the company.

i want to know how many times i will write "actual" or some form of it during this post.

i love my job. i love doing what i do, and it is only the third day. rock on.

here's to you.

for the past five months, i have been searching for a job. for those past months, i have been emailing my resume out, interviewing with those big and small, rejected by way of the silent treatment. yesterday, someone finally said yes.

life is tough right now. but it's always tough. so for someone to take a chance on me, i am utterly all smiles. and i haven't been smiles lately. i have been a ball full of worry. and stress. but now, i can relax and breath. i love my industry. i love my place in it right now. i can't wait to grow.

i have tried for so long to find a position where i know i will excel. and i found one. and those months of searching have lead to me have this unimaginable hunger as an advertiser. i have had some falls along the way. but i have had some amazing shots at greatness. and i am proud of every single one because i have done them, and i have grown and been taught some very important lessons.

so here's to you, people in the big offices of the big agencies who never return emails and phone calls. here's to you, people who say i need to be hungry for it all, who say i am entitled. here's to you, people who say my book isn't exciting, and to those who say "maybe next time".

but also, here's to you, friends who said to never give up. family who prayed. people who said keep going. those who wished for the best and those who said i have talent.

the people who turned me away gave me the drive and ambition. the people closest to me gave me the determination to keep going.

chocolate shakes and burgers! yes please.

i just realized that once the weather settles into something wonderful, i will be going to 'shake shack' in madison square park. just thinking about that place made me giddy with excitement, like some girl who just saw the jo bros for the first time. yes, that type of excitement.

the weather in nyc brings out the best i think in everyone. i don't know why i keep talking about the weather in all of my posts, so i apologize. but that is all for now.

i also talk about food i think too. not a glutton.

life change

so, i had an internship with EuroRSCG, which is an advertising agency. i was interning as a strategic planner, and i wish i could tell you what my job was, but i still can't.

yes, the word is 'had'. through a series of events and consequences, we broke up. and i'm not mad at all. or upset. the short time i was there, i realized what i loved to do was creative, and my account service dream was just a dream.

i learned a few things, but one thing i will miss is the fridge full of DP.

on a side note, the weather is finally getting its act together. thank goodness.